I Hope You Dance

I hope you never lose your sense of wonder
You get your fill to eat
But always keep that hunger
May you never take one single breath for granted
God forbid love ever leave you empty handed
I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance

I hope you never fear those mountains in the distance
Never settle for the path of least resistance
Living might mean taking chances
But they're worth taking
Lovin' might be a mistake
But it's worth making
Don't let some hell bent heart
Leave you bitter
When you come close to selling out
Reconsider
Give the heavens above
More than just a passing glance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

I hope you still feel small
When you stand by the ocean
Whenever one door closes, I hope one more opens
Promise me you'll give faith a fighting chance

And when you get the choice to sit it out or dance
Dance
I hope you dance
I hope you dance
(Time is a real and constant motion always)
I hope you dance
(Rolling us along)
I hope you dance
(Tell me who)
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
I hope you dance
(Where those years have gone)

(Tell me who)
I hope you dance
(Wants to look back on their youth and wonder)
(Where those years have gone)

"I" hope YOU'LL dance.

I Am Not Alone...

I've spent the last ten years of my life feeling sad, lonely, depressed, anxious, and afraid. At some point I must have decided, this is it. This, is all there is to the rest of my life. I guess I gave up. I haven't really been living, it's been more like just existing.
Eating (LOTS of eating) sleeping, watching television, fiddling around on the internet, and a part time job that's going nowhere has been the sum total of my life. My children are grown, all leading their own lives. My husband and I have drifted so far apart we hardly even talk to each other any more. There was a time when his being gone overnight would bug the hell out of me. Now, I look forward to his monthly sojourn to his brothers. I relished the moments I have alone. When alone I can retreat into the nowhere land of my life.
I've changed so much I don't even recognize the woman in the mirror anymore. That is, when I take the time to look in a mirror. Which is not something I do very often.
A few weeks ago, someone sent me some pictures that he'd taken of me years ago. I was stunned. Who WAS that woman? That could not be me. Yet I know it was. I remember those pictures. I can remember when almost everyone of them was taken. What happened to her?
Looking at those pictures I was forced to take a long hard look at myself. I realized I wanted more. The problem? Wanting it wasn't enough.
Then by chance, I found my inspiration.
First there was this song. I must have listened to that song a hundred times over the past month (today is one month to the day) . When I get discouraged, when I think, I can't do this when other's tell me I'm behaving like a silly fool. I sit down and I listen to that song. I can't tell you why, I can only tell you that when I hear it, when I watch that video, I feel a sense of peace, and determination. I feel like he's talking to me. Telling me don't give up. Be strong. YOU can do this.
This song is all about temptation. Temptation comes in many forms. It's not always of a sexual nature. There is temptation of the mind, of the spirit, of the soul. When he says "don't get on that Long Black Train" I know, he knows, what I'm going through. I know I'm not alone.
Then I happen to catch a movie on the Lifetime channel. Ambulance Girl, spoke to me. I laughed, I cried, I saw myself (especially in that scene where she says "he may be half my age, but I don't care..."). Knowing this movie was a true story, once again I realized, I am not alone.
I know I can do this. With a little help from my friends, and a lot of faith in something greater than myself. I know I WILL do this. I will do it for every woman (or man) who's felt their life was out of control and didn't know how or what to do. I will do it for the people I love. Even if they don't understand why I need to. I will do it for the one's who love me. Because they deserve the best me I can be. Most of all I will do it for ME. Because I deserve to be the best me I can be.

The Road Not Taken

Sometimes people who seem to be fairly intelligent will do incredibly stupid things. I am living proof of this.
I know the stories about people losing their jobs over blogs. I have experienced firsthand what happens when family members stumble across one's blog. You'd think I'd have remembered.
The thing is I've been so caught up in my own little changing world, I'd forgotten. Reality came knocking on my door today.
Not everyone is enthusiastic about the decisions I've been making of late. Believe it or not there are those who think I'm behaving like a child. Words like "silly" and "embarrassing", were bandied about. Even the dreaded "middle-aged crisis" was tossed in for good measure.
Tonight I'm feeling wounded and uncertain. Maybe I am acting like a silly ole fool. Maybe I should accept this is my life and just live with it. Learn to age gracefully. It would be the responsible and mature thing to do.
I've always done the responsible thing. I've always done what was best for everyone. That's what grown-ups do, right? I've been down this road before. I know where it leads.
Why is it the people who say they love us, are willing to hurt us? Is someone else's vision of me, of who I am, more important than my own? When do we get permission to stop living for others and get to live for ourselves?
Thing is, I had this crazy idea that maybe, just once before I hang up my hopes and dreams, I could fly again. Is that really so much to ask?

Dogs and Cats

How many dogs does it take to change a light bulb?

1. Golden Retriever: The sun is shining, the day is young, we've got our whole lives ahead of us, and you're inside worrying about a stupid burned out bulb?

2. Border Collie: Just one, and then I'll replace any wiring that's not up to code.

3. Dachshund: You know I can't reach that stupid lamp!

4. Rottweiler: Make me.

5. Boxer: Who cares? I can still play with my squeaky toys in the dark.

6. Lab: Oh, me, me!!!!! Pleeeeeeeeeze let me change the light bulb! Can I? Can I? Huh? Huh? Huh? Can I? Pleeeeeeeeeze, please, please, please!

7. German Shepherd: I'll change it as soon as I've led these people from the dark, check to make sure I haven't missed any, and make just one more perimeter patrol to see that no one has tried to take advantage of the situation.

8. Jack Russell Terrier:I'll just pop it in while I'm bouncing off the walls and furniture.

9. Old English Sheep Dog: Light bulb? I'm sorry, but I don't see a light bulb!

10. Cocker Spaniel: Why change it? I can still pee on the carpet in the dark.

11. Chihuahua : Yo quiero Taco Bulb. Or "We don't need no stinking light bulb."

12. Greyhound: It isn't moving. Who cares?

13. Australian Shepherd: First, I'll put all the light bulbs in a little circle…

14. Poodle: I'll just blow in the Border Collie's ear and he'll do it. By the time he finishes rewiring the house, my nails will be dry.

Now, how many cats does it take to change a light bulb?
Cats do not change light bulbs.
People change light bulbs.
The real question is:"How long will it be before I ("hello, CAT here") can expect some light, some dinner, and a massage?"
"ALL OF WHICH PROVES, ONCE AGAIN, THAT WHILE DOGS HAVE MASTERS, CATS HAVE STAFF!"


Shamelessly stolen from Mother Hen's Place.
Has anyone else noticed how 'shameless' I am these days?

Thoughts for Tuesday

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Come on, you know it's five o'clock somewhere!!

Shamelessly stolen from the 5th Circle of Hell.
Which by the way, is one heck of good blog!

I've Been Wondering...

Okay, here's your chance. Tell me what you REALLY think.

JOHARI


Yes, that means all five of you who still visit me these days.

Theme Songs

Okay, soooo apparently we don't ALL get into those mushy love songs. I can understand that. It's been a long time since I could appreciate a sweet sexy song about two people in love. Life will do that to you.
If I were to pick a song that summed up how I feel these days, it would have to be this song by Lorrie Morgan
I Didn't Know My Own Strength

I've been livin' with a heart on the mend
Wonderin' how will I ever be strong
I know I'll live to love again
I just leaned on you too long

I didn't know my own strength
'Till I had to pick myself up
And carry on without your love
Oh,I'm gettin' back on my feet
It's been a long hard fall
But I'll make it after all
I didn't know my own strength

I've had oceans of tears to get through
And the weight of the world on my mind
There've been mountains of memories to move
And I've been beating back the blows to my pride
But "til the times got tough
I never knew what I was made of

I didn't know my own strength
'Till I had to pick myself up
And carry on without your love
Oh,I'm gettin' back on my feet
It's been a long hard fall
But I'll make it after all
I didn't know my own strength

Then the time got tough
And I knew what I was made of

I didn't know my own strength
'Till I had to pick myself up
And carry on without your love
Oh,I'm gettin' back on my feet
It's been a long hard fall
But I'll make it after all
I didn't know my own strength

A Special Treat

If you have dial-up you may not be able to view the video, but give it a few minutes to download anyway. Trust me it'll be worth the wait.
Must Be Doin Something Right...
A woman is mystery
A man just can't understand
Sometimes all it takes to please her
Is the touch of your hand
And other times you gotta take it slow
And hold her all night long
Heaven knows there's so many ways
A man can go wrong

Must be doin' something right
I just heard you sigh
You leaned into my kiss
And closed those deep blue need you eyes
Don't know what I did
To earn a love like this, but baby, I
Must be doin' something right

Anywhere you wanna go
Baby, show me the way
I'm open to suggestions
Mmm, whatever you say
Tonight's about giving you
What you want, whatever it takes
Girl, I hope I'm on the right road
And judging by the smile on your face

I don't know what I did
To earn a love like this, but baby, I
Must be doin' something right
Must be doin' something right

Say WHAT?

I got nothing, not even a decent Friday Five. So I'll give you five weird facts.
Enjoy.

Did you know turkey's can reproduce without having sex?
Good grief can you just imagine?

In India, pajamas are considered acceptable as daytime wearing apparel.
I am sooo thinking I could live there.

In 1976 an LA secretary named Jannene Swift officially married a 50 pound rock in a ceremony witnessed by more than 20 people.
Lets hope she's not like the turkey and can reproduce on her own. Just what we need [NOT] more nutjobs.

The earth gets 100 tons heavier EVERY day, due to falling space dust.
And to think most women worry if they gain a pound in a year. Poor Mother Earth.

An average adult produces about half a liter of flatulent gas per day, resulting in an average of about fourteen occurrences of flatulence a day.
Man that's whole lotta fartin going on!!

Okay, so what you got for me?

So, you wanna be "My Man"...

I found this over at Monica's
I don't think there is such a thing as a perfect partner. I'm not perfect and I certainly don't expect anyone else to be. We all stumble and fall along the way. The important thing is that we learn to forgive and to let go of the hurt. However a man who possesses the qualities I'll list would be close enough to perfect for me.

1.) Compassion. I can't imagine life with someone who couldn't feel for the plight of those less fortunate than himself. A man without compassion is a man who's soul is damaged. Ours is not to judge but to serve, and we serve best by serving our fellow man. Or woman.

2.) Sense of humor. You've got to be able to laugh. Not just at others but at yourself and at life. Like when your trying to make that stupid dog sing. Do you have any idea how silly you look? Do you know how much I love watching you? If you treat me half as good as you do that dog, I'll be a lucky woman. Besides, it kinda turns me on. For you, not the dog.

3.) Be versatile. Stubbornness and rigidity are not conducive to building a relationship. Life is about growing and changing. If I tell you I want to stay in for the night and you makes plans, then I change my mind, don't get all bent out of shape. I'm a woman. Changing my mind is what I do. It may be what I do best. Well maybe not BEST but it's in the top five things. By the way, this includes the bedroom. Flexibility and versatility are very important here. I plan on making up for lost time, so be prepared. You might want to stock up on vitamins. Or at least caffeine. I've been hearing a lot about those 'power' drinks. Maybe you could invest in a couple of cases.

4.) Integrity. For me integrity encompasses honesty, and trustworthiness. You can't have one without the others. I don't mind if you look, but if you cross the line, your neither honest or trustworthy and your sorely lacking in integrity. I don't need this in my life. That includes what you do on the internet. You'd be surprised just how many people think online relationships don't count as cheating on or dishonoring your spouse or significant other. Never, ever cross that line. If you do, it's over. Finished. Done.

5.) Be attractive. I don't mean you have to be a 'hunk', or drop dead good looking. Not that I don't appreciate that you are, just know it's not the 'looks' that matter. It's how you take care of yourself. How you dress. The way you carry yourself, the way you act, and the way you treat others. Nice teeth are important. Really. Nothing turns me on like your smile. Well except for that dog singing thing.

6.) Intelligence. I need you to talk to me. About things other than your family. Things that matter. Like politics. We don't have to agree (in fact it's kind of exciting when we don't), but I do need you to care enough to have an opinion. And to be able to talk about a variety of subjects. I love pillow talk. It's the best. So don't plan on rolling over an falling asleep.

7.) Be my rock. Give me someone strong I can depend on. I don't need you to take care of me. But when I get myself in a situation where I need you, be there. Climb up on that white horse and rush in to save me. I'm a woman after all. Chances are pretty good that I'm gonna get myself in a muddle now and then. Be there for me when I do. I'll do the same for you. I promise.

8.) Love me. Warts and all. No, I don't have any 'warts' (freckles are not warts) but I do have flaws. Plenty of them. I'm a selfish woman and I want ALL your heart. I want to be THE most important person in your life. There should be only one thing you need more than me and that's air to breathe. If your not prepared to put me first, then let's don't even start down this road. I've played second fiddle and I don't like that position. I'll share you with the dog, and even your nosy/bossy/interfering Mother/family, but I come FIRST!

Okay, so, we know what "I" want, now what's on YOUR list?

Happy Valentines Day!

Today is Valentines Day, and I hope everyone who passes this way is blessed with someone in their life to share this day with. Not just a lover, but friends and family as well.
As I sat trying to think of something to share with you, I came across this song, and it just seems to reflect so well where I'm at in my life right now. I have an old blue chair, and while it's not a rocking chair it is comfortable and I've done a lot of living my life in that chair. I've laughed, I've cried, I've dreamed. I find myself doing a lot of that lately. Dreaming that is. Dreaming and making plans. It feels good.
I hope each and everyone of you knows how special you are to me. Your not just my blog friends, your my blog family. Your the family I would have chosen if God had allowed me to.
Anyway (ooo Piggy's fav word) this song is my little gift to you. I hope you enjoy it.
Happy Valentines Day!!
There's a blue rocking chair
Sitting in the sand
Weathered by the storms and well oiled hands
It sways back and forth
With the help of the winds
It seems to always be there, like an old trusted friend

I've read a lot of books, wrote a few songs
Looked at my life - where it's goin, where it's gone
I've seen the world through a bus windshield
But nothing compares to the way that I see it
To the way that I see it, to the way that I see it
When I sit in that old blue chair

From that chair I've caught a few fish and some rays
And I've watched boats sail in and out of cinnamon bay
I let go of a lover that took a piece of my heart
Prayed many times for forgiveness and a brand new start

I've read a lot of books, wrote a few songs
Looked at my life - where it's goin, where it's gone
I've seen the world through a bus windshield
But nothing compares to the way that I see it
To the way that I see it, to the way that I see it
When I sit in that old blue chair

That chair was my bed one New Year's night
When I passed out from too much Malibu and diet
And I woke up to a hundred mosquito bites
I swear, got em all sitting right there
In that old blue chair

There's a blue rocking chair
Sitting in the sand
Weathered by the storms and well oiled hands

Walk A Little Straighter

Someone once said, "The saddest thing in the world, is loving someone who used to love you".
I'd have to argue with that, because while having a broken heart may be sad, it's not the 'saddest' thing in the world. That would have to be the eyes of a child when they experience pain. Whether that pain is physical or emotional. Maybe emotional is worse. Children have short memories when it comes to physical pain. They forget the skinned knees, the earaches, the tummy aches. The pain of having their little hearts broken stays with them forever. How do you explain to a child why his/her parent, or friend doesn't love them? Can words ever heal that wound? Somehow I don't think so.
Maybe what that line should be is "The saddest thing in the world is loving someone who should love you, but doesn't".
Today I'm thinking of all the children who's lives have been irreparably affected by a parent who failed to step up to the plate. I hurt for them. I cry for them. I pray for them.

I remember looking up
To look up to him
And I remember most the time
He wasn't there
I'd be waiting at the door
When he got home at night
He'd pass me by to go to pass out in his chair

And I'd say
Walk a little straighter daddy
You're swaying side to side
You're footsteps make me dizzy
And no matter how I try
I keep tripping and stumbling
If you'd look down here you'd see
Walk a little straighter daddy
You're leading me

He stumbled in the gym
On graduation day
And I couldn't help but feel
So ashamed
And I wasn't surprised a bit
When he didn't stay
He stumbled out before they called my name

And I thought
Walk a little straighter daddy
You're swaying side to side
It's not just me who's watching
you've caught everybody's eye
And you're tripping and stumbling
and even though I've turned 18
Walk a little straighter daddy
You're still leading me

The old mans still like he always was
But I love him anyway
If I've learned one thing from him
Its my kids will never have to say

Walk a little straighter daddy
You're swaying side to side
You're footsteps make me dizzy
And no matter how I try
I keep tripping and stumbling
if you'd look down here you'd see
Walk a little straighter daddy
You're leading me

Yeah walk a little straighter daddy
You're leading me

Stolen from Joe

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Orderly? Me? I don't think so.
Efficent? Nope, another miss.
Flexible and optimistic? I like the sound of that.
I wouldn't say I'm 'sociable', but I can be fun.

Hope everyone has a lovely weekend. We're in for a cold rainy one here in Podunt. Looks like this might be the coldest we've had so far. I can live with it. Heaven knows summer will be here all too soon.

Old Country Speaks Out

Why don't we liberate these United States,
We're the ones that need it worst.
Let the rest of the world help us for a change,
And let's rebuild America first.

Our highways an' bridges are fallin' apart:
Who's blessed an' who has been cursed?
There's things to be done all over the world,
But let's rebuild America first.

Who's on the Hill and who's watchin' the valley?
An' who's in charge of it all?
God bless the army an' God bless our liberty,
And back dump the rest of it all.

Yeah, men in position are backin' away:
Freedom is stuck in reverse.
Let's get out of Iraq an' get back on the track,
And let's rebuild America first.

Why don't we liberate these United States,
We're the ones who need it the most.
You think I'm blowin smoke?
Boys it ain't no joke.
I make twenty trips a year from coast to coast.
It's time we rebuild America first!
******

I heard this song for the first time last night. Saw the video as well. The song was writen and performed by none other than country music great, Merle Haggard. There are more than a few veterans in the video.
Country music artists have long been know as strong Christian conservative people. When you see a hard line country boy like Merle Haggered standing up and saying we need a change of direction in this country, you know it's time to take a long hard look at where we are and what we're doing. More important, where we're headed.
Like Merle I think it's high time we put AMERICA FIRST!!

I'm Sorry

Sometimes when you've been in pain so long, you almost forget what it feels like to be happy. To have hope in your life. Then something happens and life begins to take on a new look for you. In the excitement of the moment, it's easy to forget those who've stood by you through the long dark days of sadness. The people who endured your endless negativity, your whining, your depression that never seemed to end. You assume, as you begin your journey into this new phase in your life that everyone will be as thrilled and happy as you are. Maybe you even think it will be a relief for them. They will no longer have to be your constant cheerleader (I soooo wanted to say constant gardener). You don't mean to be selfish, you're just so happy, you forget that maybe, just maybe not everyone will be as enthusiastic as you are.
I'm afraid, I've been careless with the hearts and feelings of those who have been my companions in this foray into pessimism and melancholy. I'm sorry. It wasn't my intention to ignore your feelings. I can offer up excuses, but that's what they'd be, excuses. So let me tell you how much you mean to me.
You have been my friend when I felt I had none. You have given me strength when I was so sad it was all I could do to breathe. In the darkest hours of my life, you were there for me. You made me see life was worth living and I was worthy of being loved. When I didn't listen you kept right on talking. You never gave up on me. I owe you more than words can ever express. I will never forget how you were there for me. I would never hurt you intentionally. I would never leave you behind.
As I begin this odyssey I want you there with me. Yes, I will change. Yes it will be strange. For both of us. But we can learn and grow together. Maybe somewhere along the way, I can even help you. Maybe someday, I can show you just how much you have given me.
Please know that no matter what life has in store for me, you my precious friend will always be in my heart and on my mind.

Keeper of the Stars

It was no accident me finding you
Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew
Now I just can't believe you're in my life
Heaven's smilin` down on me
As I look at you tonight

I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doin'
When he joined these two hearts
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I've got all I'll ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars

Soft moonlight on your face oh how you shine
It takes my breath away
Just to look into your eyes
I know I don't deserve a treasure like you
There really are no words
To show my gratitude

So I tip my hat to the keeper of the stars
He sure knew what he was doin'
When he joined these two hearts
I hold everything
When I hold you in my arms
I've got all Ill ever need
Thanks to the keeper of the stars

It was no accident me finding you
Someone had a hand in it
Long before we ever knew

I haven't been able to listen to this song for almost ten years. Today, I have taken another step toward healing.

Monday Madness

There's a new wind blowing like I've never known
I'm breathing deeper than I've ever done
And it sure feels good to finally feel the way I do

I'm letting go of all my lonely yesterdays
I'm forgiven myself for the mistakes I've made
There's so much I wanna do

I'm so impatient, I want tomorrow to be today
Reality is a damper on my parade of dreams
This livin one day at a time is really hard to do

There's a new kid on the block
And she's learning how to play again
Hang on tight cause it's about to get windy around here, as she breezes through...

Who IS This Woman?

This past week has been an excercise in discovery. At least for me.
I don't know if it's the change in me, or if there's something in the atmosphere. Whatever it is I hope it last. Forever!
You know sometimes people will surprise you. You think you know someone, know how they will react,then they'll do the damnedest thing. Just knock you right off your feet.
A few weeks ago someone from my past suddenly reappeared in my life. That seemingly [NOT] minor event has apparently set off a chain reaction. Last week I screwed up my courage and reached out to a few people, that I was sure wouldn't be the least bit interested in hearing from me. Not that I'd done anything to them, other than just be my usual stubborn, sanctimonious self. To my surprise they were all happy to hear from me. Well, with maybe ONE exception, and I'm not really sure what he thought. We chatted, caught up on the news in our lives, and visited some fond memories. One of them, has been particularly nice. He's done some really sweet things for me. I'm not going to mention his name. He knows who he is, and that's enough.
One of those people was at one time a really good friend. We didn't have any kind of 'falling out', but there were things going on in her life that I didn't approve of. I of course voiced my opinion, not always the smartest move. Then, I just sort of drifted away, letting those 'things' get in the way. She thought I was mad, I thought she didn't care. When I called her, we were both a little hesitant at first but then that old 'feeling' came back and in no time we were chatting away about everything in our lives. At one point she shocked me when she said, "Wanda if I didn't know better, I'd think you were in love". Wow, where did that come from? I ask what she meant, she said, "I don't know, it's something in your voice, something different". I think she may be right.
Could it be I'm learning to love, MYSELF?
Maybe, or maybe it's someone else. Someone who reached out across space and time, and touched me. Can one person really have that big of an impact on another?
Who knows? All I know is I'm feeling better than I've felt in years. I'm looking forward to each day. And I'm going to stop now, before I make a complete fool of myself.
Here's hoping everyone has a great week ahead.

Friday Five

1.) List one person you've lost touch with that you will look up.
Chris

2.) List two places you want to go.
Whidbey Island, WA
Maine

3.) List three habits you want to change.
Being negative
Procrastinating
Being stubborn


4.) List four things you hope to learn.
To dance
To forgive
To have more faith in myself
How to live on a budget



5.) List five books you want to read this year.
1.The Bible (it never gets old)
2.A Million Little Pieces (yes I've heard all the brouhaha, don't care, I still want to read the book.
3.Angels and Demons by Dan Brown
4.State of Fear by Michael Crichton
5.She's Come Undone by Wally Lamb

That's all I got for now.