The Victor

How was he to know
I unlike the others
would not trample on his heart
in my quest for freedom

Before I could offer my hand
he drew first blood
satisfied that tonight
he would be the victor

My steps faltered
the venom took it's hold
I battled to remain upright
outlast the inevitable

Eyelids slowly closing
Slipping softly to the ground
My breaths turned into gasps

As I lay there
life slowly ebbing away
my eyes opened
looking towards the heavens
incredulous with wonder

A new hope filled me
Pain no longer touched me
I had reached my destination
and doing so
attained an everlasting Nirvana

Alas!
It was I who was the victor.

The Anger Within

The anger within
rolls upon me
as an approaching storm,
dark clouds moving
with a flash of light,
quick and then gone
only to return,
a harshness of words
like the howling wind,
destructive presence
and forceful fury
is this who I have become
or who I've always been

The Portrait

let's paint a portrait
you and I
using no colors from yesterday
working only with what we have today
no future, no past,
no promises, no returns

just for a little while
let our thoughts run wild
imagine the possiblities
flights of fantasy

just for tonight
let's pretend,
pretend you care,
and that I don't
live in the moment

lets pretend,
pretend we've never been hurt,
we've never loved and lost
just for tonight let's make believe

the cold gray dawn
of tomorrow will come soon enough
for just one moment
let's pretend...

One Moment Too Long

for so long i waited

hoping everyday

you would see me

your eyes would turn my way

 

a smile a glace

an acknowledgement

i yearned for just one look

assurance i was not invisible

 

i practiced

what i'd say

should you ever

look my way

 

hours, days go by

late at night

i lay awake and cry

why God, why

can't he see

who i am

why can't he see me

 

today that look came

at last you saw me

you looked so surprised

 

but you waited

one moment too long

what might have been

will never be

 

today you saw me

as i walked away

Dying Inside

when you see the one you love..

 with the one they love

your wanting someone so bad,

 but you just can't have them

going to sleep thinking about them

 knowing theyre thinking about someone else

 

something inside you dies

 a piece at a time

 until there are no more pieces

 then you take your emptiness wrap it around you

 and you die inside

Sometimes it feels
like life just gets too hard,
too messy
to make sense of it all.
There are times
where all you can do
is to simply let go and move on
gather courage together
and choose a direction
that carries you toward a new dawn

We can't change yesterday,
but, we do have the power
to make today a wonderful day
and to fill our tomorrows
with hope

So keep putting one foot
in front of the other
and taking your life
day by day.

I may not be able to find
the right words, or say
the right things,
but know you're in my
thoughts every day.

Life Ain't Always Beautiful

Life ain't always beautiful
Sometimes it's just plain hard
Life can knock you down, it can break your heart

Life ain't always beautiful
You think you're on your way
And it's just a dead end road at the end of the day

But the struggle makes you stronger
And the changes make you wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' it sweet time


No,life aint always beautiful
Tears will fall sometimes
Life aint always beautiful
But it's a beautiful ride

Life aint always beautiful
Some days I miss your smile
I get tired of walkin' all these lonely miles

And I wish for just one minute
I could see your pretty face
Guess I can dream, but life dont work that way


But the struggles makes me stronger
And the changes make me wise
And happiness has it's own way of takin' its sweet time

No, life aint always beautiful
But I know I'll be fine
Hey, life aint always beautiful
But its a beautiful ride
What a beautiful ride
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If only it were true....